I'll be honest in saying that I just needed to stay away from the blog and not do anything "normal" last month for some of the normal things that I would typically normally do.
Usually I would post on it being our month and doing anything we wanted, because it was our month.
I probably would have made a post on George Floyd and the 5th anniversary of his murder and death.
And a slew of other posts.
But I just needed a break for a bit because I wasn't even sure if we're going to have a month anymore, and I just didn't feel like reaching into the dark pit of what this administration is turning our country into--to pull out everything I know I can be posting about.
It's that fatigue. It's that thought of wondering what use does any of it make, in combination with trying to center myself because I have other things in my life too that I need to focus on in addition to community and giving back.
Many times all those pieces of my life feed off each other. There really is some synergy.
But other times--they do not.
And I hit walls. I need an energy boost.
So sometimes I just have to take a break from this or other community minded projects in my life. And that's okay I've realized as I've gotten older because it really is a marathon, and at the same time, sometimes you have to do that self care and just not do what you normally would do in order to get back to normal again--whatever normal means to me at the time.
Take the time you need for you especially if you are engaging in community or activism work because it's easy to say you need to, or say we know we need to--
But it's another thing to actually do it, or do it without feeling guilty.
So take it from me--don't worry about it.
It will all be here when you get back.
