An Open Letter To Myself

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Dear Me:

I know that sometimes you need to rail, but have you read your blog lately or have you just been posting without reading it because honestly - you've kind of been in a bad mood lately even if some of it's just hyperbole - and yes - I know just as well as you do - because I am you, you ninnie - that things do legitimately need to be said.

But why not a picture of a cute kitty occasionally?

And notice the words I'm using too like cranky and ninnie versus calling you a dumb MF and dropping the F-bomb all the time. I'm not saying these aren't called for somedays - because they are - but there's also something called tact.

And as long as I'm ripping on you - you know as well as I do that sometimes people who are - how should I say - not quite right - doesn't always have everything to do with them being White - we've all met people of all colors who are just a little off.

Again, I'm not saying that some people don't deserve it at times - but sometimes you can come off like people can't be sane and have something to offer simply because they're White - and you know that's not true - you know you love movies like Almost Famous and Goodwill Hunting, you know you've had great talks and late nights with people who aren't Asian - that you've loved people of all colors including people who are White - and I guess in that way all I'm saying is that sometimes you need to step on back and breathe because I get what you do or at least what you're trying to do, but at the same time - remember that you have to have balance - that it's okay to be in the middle sometimes - that it doesn't always have to be a fight or a struggle and that building up doesn't always mean tearing down - that sometimes life takes over - and that as Asian and American as you are - it's not always about that.

I guess what I'm saying is that sometimes, you just need to post up a picture of a cute kitty.